Sometimes I think I'm being told what I want to hear and not necessarily what will happen, actually happen. Of course I get a few 'you won't like it all the time' 'it's tough' 'you'll be pushed' etc etc. What about the times where I'll get dirt kicked in my face and the times the drill instructors "won't curse" at me. Not that I'm scared of that but I suppose I'd rather hear what will actually happen. All the bad things. I want to know what will happen. The only reason I doubt joining at times is because I know i haven't heard the 100% truth. I've heard the benefits, and what the Marines can give to me, what I can see, places I can go. But what about the feeling of lonliness, or the feeling of being forgotten, of dying, of losing friends, of having to be away from home months at a time and not knowing how to act or think, what about the times where I will feel like giving up or times that I could possibly end up breaking down. I'm used to facing things alone but this is a decision that I know I can't face by myself. I need the support. I need to know what I'm getting into. I'm ranting and my thoughts are everywhere but where exactly are they supposed to be? I have a year to doubt right? Or to be scared. And what if I ever want to start a family! I want to have military be my career and I don't know how it could work. I know it's too soon to think about this but it's something to think about. If I want the military to be part of my future than obviously I need to think about every little thing. I'm scared. Very scared. Possibly more scared than I'll ever say outloud. I need to know the hard truth in order to be prepared. I can't do this without knowing... I don't think I can, not without being 100% prepares.

ASVAB..HOW I HATE YOU.

I never experienced something like this.. tools you are haunting me!!!!!
I know nothing about engines and cars >.<

12 weeks.

What I will experience at Parris Island, South Carolina.
Boot camp is a 12 week experience where I will face the toughest basic training of all the branches.

Week One: Receiving



Week Two: In The Barracks.



Week Three:Bayonet Assault Course



Week Four:Pugil Sticks



Week Five:Marine Corps Martial Arts. (MCMAP)



Week six:Rappelling



Week Seven:Grass Week



Week Eight:Firing Week



Week Nine:The Confidence Course



Week ten:Day Movement



Week Eleven:The Crucible.(1/4) Leadership wall



Week Eleven: The Crucible(2/4)The Planks



Week Eleven: The Crucible (3/4)Patrolling



Week Eleven:The Crucible (4/4) The Octagon



Week Twelve:Emblem Ceremony

List of fears.:

1. Dying
2. Not being able to pass the Crucible
3. Breaking a bone
4. thinking about giving up
5. giving up
6. feeling alone
7. not being able to be physically ready
8. drill instructors
9. being away from home
10. SOI and MOS.
11. Saying goodbye to my family for months at a time.
    

Drill Instructors.

My biggest fear at this time would have to be my drill instructor D:
And this ISN'T close to the real thing.

Female Marines; A true Inspiration.

As I was looking online for more information about the Marines I came across pictures of female Marines that show that women are JUST as capable as males when it comes to the Marines.
“There are no female Marines. Only Marines.”

Motivation!

I have Motivation and USMC written in places that I will see every day when I wake up.
Motivation is written in huge letters on my door so when I leave my room I know that I have something to work hard for.