USMC.

Many times I have thought of what i wanted to be, or what i wanted to do. The image was never clear. I've always wanted to do more and achieve more. I have the personality of someone who does want to do more than what is expected of them. Who ever would have thought that joining the Marines was something I would want to do. I've only decided this maybe a month ago but during this time I've researched and I've asked questions. Not all are fully answered. Some I feel that I won't be able to get the answer. I will admit I'm fearful of a lot of things. But what I am tending to fear the most at the moment is if I'll be able to finish.. I know I will..but truthfully I don't want to be the one who inside regrets joining. I don't believe I will but I just don't want the thought of me even remotely coming close to thinking that. I would be proud to be a Marine, especially a female marine but what do I leave behind?
I've been fearful of many things in life like height, the dark, or spiders! But when joining I know that I will be trained to remain calm in any situation, physical. How will I be ready mentally? I've read and seen the experiences of now marines and they all say there is no way to be mentally ready to go through the rigorous things that you do at boot camp. Will I lose who I've become to be? I feel as if I might be leading towards all the negatives and that is something I shouldn't be doing only because I know how much this would mean to myself. Being able to say I've seen the world and I've trained with the best.
In over a year I'll be leaving if it all works out for the best.